We’ve all done it, perhaps some more than others. It usually surfaces when we are at a crossroad, an important decision, or an uncomfortable spot. Sometimes it is in response to something really terrible; a death, a loss, or an extreme sin we find within. It flashes through the mind of almost everyone who loves… Continue reading Free From Seeking God’s Will
Happiness is for Babies
My six-year-old son tugs expectantly on the back of my shirt. It is usually quite hectic around 11:30am in my kitchen, making lunch for 9 people. I shift the baby to my other hip and peel the two-year-old off of my leg so that I can kneel down to speak with him in the middle… Continue reading Happiness is for Babies
When the Time Comes
I saw it in my dream or future. When I will put my gods to sleep. Now's not the time. It's too soon. Or way too late. Now They numb, gnawing my nerves stinging like pleasures. They stroke, scraping their nails, across my surfaces. They kiss, biting icy dry lips underneath my glosses. I feel… Continue reading When the Time Comes
Broken is Not Enough
Hands in her lap. Eyes clenched shut. Black swells of emotion rush from deep behind her eyes down to the pit of her stomach. Sketchy scenes replay from her past as if from a damaged filmstrip. Shameful thoughts and conversations bring an uncontrollable shudder from the depths of her soul. For a second, she lets… Continue reading Broken is Not Enough
Sunshine, Rainbows, and Screaming Babies
Every morning, a great light sparkles on the horizon. A downpour of warmth rushes over a dark and sleepy landscape. Sometimes covered by clouds, sometimes shining in solitary glory, the sun covers our planet with a predictable pattern that we almost daily forget. The sun continues to show up, lighting up the world even without… Continue reading Sunshine, Rainbows, and Screaming Babies