Self reflection might kill you If you stay too long. We all know the voice inside that want to be right. Who deadens nerves and eardrums and hands When you have to listen to your self-inflicted quiet self. Who feels. Who wants. Who searches. Who wants to make you right But sometimes makes you sick… Continue reading Self Reflection
I love you. Someone once said. No you don’t. I said. I love you. Someone said again. Don’t say that unless you know what that means. I love you? Someone asked. And I wondered about the law of love. Is love a desire to be next to you? Is love a familiarity that grows on… Continue reading False Love
There are no other words quite as precious as forgiveness. They are discovered deep in the dank depressions. Dirty, smelly, crusty covered in the slime of sin. Buried under years of ignorance, months of misunderstandings, hours of self-righteousness, they are trampled upon as each day passes. We will probably step right over them, looking to… Continue reading For Those Who Dig for the Gospel
We sit here today in a silent conversation. I type out the annoying voice in the back of my brain onto a white screen, and soon you will be reading these words in between the pretty pictures. I may be sitting outside of a quiet coffee shop my local strip mall, or I could be… Continue reading Can I Forgive You, My Virtual Friend?
Intently listening for the next few words, she held her breath and leaned a little closer. How could this guy know so much about me? Each word burned into her ears, exposing thoughts she couldn’t say out loud, stinging the back of her eyes. But how did he know? Embarrassed by those booming public words… Continue reading Christ Alone, But Now What
Today was the day she decided to live exposed. Years of passive acceptances. Years of dealing with whatever they piled on her. Years of smiles and nods slowly suffocating the fighting spirit left inside. But from now on it would be different. Summoning all her courage to make a stand. Breaking out of the whitewashed… Continue reading Ba Ba Black Sheep
She gripped the pink and yellow remains with both tiny hands. A little corner stuck out just above her thumb where she nervously bit to calm down. Ripping tearing thrashing by her own hand, the anxiety was too much to keep inside. That faded fabric barley covered her trembling body. But the routine of it… Continue reading Panic Blanket
People love to love love. At least the idea of it. Caught up in dreams of bliss and ease, we desire a love that is desirable. A shadowy longing for a great love story that has been imprinted deep in our memories. A tale of love that lasts forever. People love to love an idea… Continue reading The Real Love Story
I’ve been accused of many things. I accuse myself of many things. I am a lost and uncontrollable creature that has missed the mark, missed the point, missed my opportunity, missed out on too much. But I am maybe a little too confident for such an admittedly lacking and accused being. When I feel scratched… Continue reading Believing Nonsense
Just when I thought everything was ok. Someone comes along and says those unexpected words. “I forgive you.” Immediately something turns in my stomach. The dread of exposure washes over me. Someone else has seen my dirty secret. Someone else has recognized that hidden path that I have been following. I didn’t even know I… Continue reading Angry at the Gospel
Cindy Koch 